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emptysurprises

Location: Baltimore, Maryland, United States
Birthday: 9/24/1989
Gender: Female

Interests: How long I have been fasting is at the top of my page. Anytime it's there, I'm fasting.
Starting weight 168
Starting BMI 28.8

Current Weight
Current BMI check post
Goal Weight 1 140
Goal BMI 23.9

By: January 22
Goal Weight 2 130
Goal BMI 22.2
By February 8
Goal Weight 3 120
Goal BMI 20.05
By March 1

Goal Weight 4 110
Goal BMI 18.8
By April 8
Goal Weight 5 100
Goal BMI 17.1

Final Goal Weight 95
Final BMI 16.2
I must be 95 pounds by June
Occupation: Student

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AIM: emptysurprises

Member Since: 8/30/2005

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Sunday, October 24, 2010

I'm back.

Long time no post, almost a year actually.

Currently... In a relationship, almost two and a half years together. We've been on a rollercoaster ride lately, good times, bad times. We both definitely got too comfortable together and we let ourselves go. We're both on diets right now, I just do mine a bit differently than him.

I've lost 5 pounds since Tuesday. I go back to the doctors a week from Wednesday and would like to lose another 10 by then.

Gave in and went to the doctors last week, thought maybe I had mono. He however questioned me up and down about anxiety and depression. I tried to laugh it off but... I could see it.

I'm going to try to get back in updating frequently and commenting anyone that might still be around...

6:51 PM - 13 views - 4 eprops - 2 comments - email it

Friday, December 18, 2009

	Some days I just want to go back to my old ways so badly.
	11:15 PM - 3 views - 2 eprops - 1 comment - email it

Monday, October 19, 2009

I'm a mess. School is a disaster, not because it's impossible but because I'm out of motivation. I'm completely exhausted and we're less than half way through the semester. I just don't want to be here anymore.

My boyfriend and I are a mess too. He's getting more and more hours now because of the holidays coming... He was scheduled off next Saturday and I got a text from him this Saturday saying that he has to work now. I'm so tired of it... I ask for one complete day each week together, because otherwise I get four or five hours here and there and I hate it. I get one complete day about once every two months. I hate it. I'm crying, all the time. Last night, I thought I would do something nice for him, something he always wants but I'm never in the mood for anymore... He watched a football game. I stopped, bawled and he said he was leaving. Like that was going to fix the situation...

I don't want to eat, I'm not hungry. I want to be skinny. What happened last night made me dislike myself even more. It killed me.

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Friday, September 25, 2009

	I lost that weight... But we went to a big buffet for my bday.. to bad, I'll lose it again. I should be studying but I really don't want to. I better go... I need to get good grades this semester.
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Friday, September 18, 2009

	1 more pound, 6 days to do it
	10:40 AM - 5 views - email it

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